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My life began
much like most others, with parents, which did their best to meet the
immediate needs & provide me with a few of my occasional wants. They
also, attempted to instill in me, proper virtues, respect for others, not
to lie or steal. They were sober, responsible & loving.
My trouble seemed to begin when we moved into a new
home. I wasn't readily accepted by the other children of the neighborhood,
which left me on my own most of the time.
I became troublesome, rebellious & unruly child, never seeming to fit
in.
I didn't share the same interest as most of the kids. I hated sports,
school & large groups of children.
I became a loner, doing better getting along with one
friend at a time. I spent much of my time, climbing trees or wandering
around for hours in the fields. Other times I would isolate listening to
music, identifying with the words that the singers sang.
I built a wall of anger around me & hardened
my personality, so that nothing more could hurt me .
In school, I progressively moved from class clown, to an undesirable
element with a disruptive nature that showed no respect for authority or
other children. I often got into physical altercations with class members
in order to gain recognition & acceptance.
I selected friends that were like myself; in so doing I went from bad to
worse. That which I lacked in social disgraces, I was able to pick up from
my newfound friends.
I started smoking cigarettes when I was 10 & drinking at 12, doing so
at any opportunity that was made available to me. I started to cut school,
becoming more rebellious with each new day. I challenged authority at every
level. I hated my life, hated childhood and wanted to become an adult as
quickly as possible, to be free of all restrictions and rules.
Even though I had no understanding of what being an adult was. Nor did I
understand the responsibility that came with adulthood. I only had ideas of
what I thought it was. But it still had the appearance of being far better
than these awkward teenage years.
I
assumed that life consisted of getting a job, finding a girl, getting
married, buying a house and having kids. Seemed simple enough. So I started
working, at Col. Sanders as a fry cook. Which provided me with my own money
and kept me out of trouble while I was working.
Then I found a girl whom I thought was the most
beautiful girl in the world.
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